well seems i may have really found a cannibal.  Have plane ticket ready and will go to meat him the 2nd week of August.   Has promised me that if I arrive  I will not be leaving and that I will be enjoyed as dinner.  May sound strange but this is very exciting to me   the ultimate submission to the desires and needs of another.  

still looking and still ready   very ready and willing      went to see one guy  don't think he really expected me to show up to be taken   when i did he was not ready to take me    long drive for nothing  exciting going  and disappointing coming back     but ready for another trip to try and make it happen.

maybe

Seem to be close to finding what I want.  Complete my desire.

Well I am still looking for a real cannibal.  Now, more than ever I am determined to be a meal for someone.  Why?  Lots of reasons I guess.  Total submission, a sexual thing, losing complete control and handing it over to someone else.  And never liked being told "I shouldn't do that".   So I am ready and willing.  Now just need to find that cannibal.

Still looking

Maybe??

I have kept on looking for someone that wants a real longpig - I may have found him - too soon to tell but his first contact excited me to the possibility. Feel a rush when I think of it - do so hope it works out.

Well another weekend and still waiting and searching for that special invite. Have had a number of chats with other longpigs, most I feel are not real or commited as I am. they chat about unrealistic ideas, the cooking methods etc. Non speak of the desire to hand them self over so completly, that is the rush I am seeking, the total loss of control once I have given myself over. Knowing no way out or back. But seems I may never have that rush, though I continue to seek it.